FED UP!!!!

I'm so fed up with people telling me they'll be here and then cancel last minute. Honestly, one person can only handle so much disappointment...and I think I've taken it all very gracefully. I let it roll. But it's really starting to get on my nerves and not sure how much more patience I have left for this sh*t.

The people I work for constantly don't give me notice of changes in schedules and have actually forgotten to call me to tell me they don't need me. Cam's dad always says he's going to come over to see Cam and cancels EVERY TIME!!!! EVERY F-ING TIME!!! Which breaks my heart for my son. He's not old enough to understand, but there is going to be a day where he will understand and I want more for my son than that. How could someone be so heartless? Either be a parent or just hit the road! My friends even do this to me I'll get a text an hour before they're supposed to show up. REALLY!?!?! Come on!

It sucks not feeling like you can depend on anyone.

On another similar note Cam's dad wants to hang out just the 3 of us....I am a single mom my only break is when he watches Cameron. I'd be more open to hanging out the 3 of us if he was actually around more than once a week for 2 hrs. He can afford to spend time alone with his son. And he better not be using my son (yeah I said "my" not "our" cause he hasn't earned that) to see me or get me. He claims he has changed, but so far it's all talk. Quite frankly I'm sicking of the talk it goes in one ear and out the other....why don't you just prove it, or how about you actually be a father? I don't know how he expects me to ever even consider giving him a 5th chance when he hasn't proven himself as a father first.

I'm sick of being walked all over and taken advantage of so if you think I'm being bitch it's probably cause you deserve it :-D